Friday, February 23, 2018

Imagine If...


Last weekend, I sat in bed talking with my husband. Tears ran down my face. I asked him tough questions. "Tell me about an AR-15. What makes it different than the other guns and rifles? What is a bump stock? Do we need large capacity magazines? Is there a need for a gun like an AR-15 in the hands of a common citizen?" I asked him these questions because I need to hear what the other side has to say. I wanted to listen. I wanted to learn. I come from a family of hunters and soldiers. I have my hunter's safety license. I was trained as a child to safely handle guns. I am not scared of them. I would be lying if I said that I didn't already know how I felt about weapons that are commonly used for mass shootings, but I believe in the importance of civil discourse. If I am going to teach it to my students, I am going to practice it at home, at school, at church, and in public.

Tonight a family member posted on Facebook wanting to hear from teachers who were willing to be armed. My response was, "Not a chance." I do not typically try to engage in this type of discussion online, but I have a great deal of respect for this family member and saw an opportunity to provide my thoughts on the subject. While I could tell that both of us had different opinions, I felt like I could share my side in a respectful way and she could share hers. Another family member joined the conversation and brought up the fact that we are all concerned about the welfare of our children. That is true. This is one fact in which we can agree.

Being prepared to react in a crisis situation is part of my job as a teacher. I walk into a building and see an AED, I take note. I know how to use it, and I may be called upon to do so should someone go into cardiac arrest. When I walk into a store, I look to see where the exit signs are in case I have to use my "teacher voice" to move my children or a crowd to safety. I know how to use an EPIpen. I can check a person's blood sugar. I am CPR/ First Aid certified. I am always watching. I know I have a responsibility in society that does not come with every job. I am always ready to jump in because it is what I do. However, I am not comfortable being armed, in my classroom. I am a teacher.

All of the schools in my county follow the protocol put in place by our local law enforcement officers and sheriff's department. This protocol should allow an armed officer to locate and take down an active shooter in a way that does not put more lives at risk. As hard as it is for me to say this, having an armed person on campus would most likely not stop the initial loss of life. I also know that it takes about a minute for the adults in my school to lock down a 600+ person building. This plan is a "reaction" to an active shooter.  Right now, all schools have a reactionary plan. Do we need legislation on guns? Yes. We need to have tough conversations on background checks, age requirements, and whether or not certain guns should be accessible to the public. But I feel like we are missing something here. We need to look at both sides of this issue. I spend my days teaching my students to think proactively. I ask them to think about how we can prevent situations from happening and not wait to respond once they do. In the discussion about active shooters, we are missing the what ifs.
  • What if we had trained mental health professionals working within our buildings who could help our isolated students work through their emotions and give them coping skills that they could use throughout the rest of their lives? I have no doubt that our administrators, counselors and teachers do the best we can with the knowledge we have, but we are not trained mental health workers.
  • What if every teacher was trauma-informed and could better meet the needs of students who are struggling in their classes? The needs of our students are changing so drastically. Many educators, myself included, simply cannot identify with the struggles our students bring to class each day. We must be formally trained to identify trauma and how to help students' brains process what is causing them to be in a constant state of distress.
  • What if class sizes were smaller so that teachers would be able to better identify students who are struggling? This one seems self-explanatory. I cannot reach a class of 24 the same way I can reach a class of 14.
  • What if we used restorative justice practices in our schools rather than decades-old discipline practices that simply do not work? Many schools are already starting this transition - from discipline being solely centered around punishment to discipline that is centered around learning. Teaching students to talk through their struggles and own their emotions in order to improve their actions and behaviors.
  • What if instead of suspending for a student for 1-5 days, we had programs in place to put positive mentors in their lives such as local law enforcement, firemen, business owners - just to name a few? I think of how powerful it would be for a student to ride-along with a local police officer or work with a local fireman in a fire station for a morning. I think of how much a student might learn from a local carpenter or businessman. I can only imagine the conversation and soft skills that could be learned from this. It would take a village, but isn't that what our children need?
  • What if instead of expelling students and sending them home to fester in anger, we were able to get them into the treatment facilities that they need - be it for anger management, mental health, or substance abuse? This one speaks for itself. I am not condoning bad choices, but most of the time, children do not have the ability or financial means to seek out the treatment they need. And let's be honest, if a student is being expelled from school, issues need to be addressed.
There are so many what ifs, and there is no simple answer. Every answer that will take a large amount of resources to sustain. These answers cannot just happen after a mass shooting, but sadly that is what drives this conversation. This is not a one-size-fits-all solution. No two communities are the same. No two schools are the same. This is an adaptive problem that will not be solved overnight; however, we cannot afford the loss of another student life. We need adults from all walks of life who are willing to sit down at the table and listen to each other. Truly listen. A few weeks ago, I was reminded that listening is leadership. Our students deserve better than adults yelling at each other through social media. Our students deserve adults sitting around a table saying, "Imagine if," and then ours students deserve action. 

Saturday, February 10, 2018

Taking Ownership in Each Other

When I was in my second year of teaching, I almost hung it up. I had a class of kids who were tough. I naively thought that they would be so excited to have a new, young teacher leading them each day that they would buy in to what it is we were learning in class. Wasn't I cute? 

They didn't buy into learning. They didn't buy in to that new, young teacher. And they sure didn't buy into each other. It was after this class, that I realized the problem did not lie solely with them - I was part of the problem. I didn't know how to fix our classroom problems. From that point on, a safe, respectful learning environment has been my most important goal each year.

I try my best to get to know my students, to foster a language of respect, to create a classroom that thrives on collaboration and conversation. But Friday, I realized that I still had work to do in one of my classes. As much as I hated to admit it, I didn't think that this hour felt the same about coming to my class as other hours. So I asked them, "What word or phrase comes to mind when you think about coming to class." I asked them to be honest. They were.

Their responses: 
  • Relaxed
  • What are we going to do with the research paper today? 
  • I hope classmates don't yell.
  • I can't focus. 
  • Rats - I have English.
  • Reading
  • Hard working
  • A little bit scared of some of my classmates
  • Work
  • Long
  • Oh boy
  • AND ugh - everyone I sit with is going to be loud.

Talk about a gut check. But I'll be honest, it wasn't anything that I didn't already know. I just didn't know how to fix it. Over the past few weeks, I have spent a lot of time on the road traveling as Kansas Teacher of the Year. This particular hour has never been far from my mind. I have a new teacher in my classroom who is doing an amazing job getting to know these students and make this class her own - and she was having the same concerns that I did. These students had taken ownership of what makes our class different - flexible seating, 10 minutes of independent reading a day - just to name a few. It dawned on me Friday that I had forgotten one thing: THEY HAD NOT TAKEN OWNERSHIP OF EACH OTHER.

It was so clear to me. They had not bought into this class as a family. They had not bought into the fact that we are better together. And then, I had an idea. I showed this video: 


Every time I watch it, I am amazed at how the magic in this room just happens. Hugh Jackman doesn't have to ask anyone to start singing - they let it happen. The young lady isn't self-conscious about raising her hand while she sings - she just does it. The young man in the hoodie doesn't ask to stand on a chair - he lets the energy in the room take over. No one tells them to clap their hands. No one tells them to laugh or smile. These singers have taken 100% ownership of what they are doing because they believe in each other and are working toward a common goal.

This is what my class was missing. Ownership. So, I asked them to buy in. They got in groups with individuals that they don't normally work with. I asked them three questions:
  1. What actions can no longer take place for this to be the type of class we want it to be.
  2. How will you show respect to others and what will you do if we get off track?
  3. At the end of the year, how will you know that you have successfully changed our classroom culture? What does a healthy, successful classroom environment look like?

You see, it dawned on me that I have done almost all that I can to create a safe learning environment - the real work is up to them. So this has become our new class goal. We are going to purposefully lift each other up. We are going to keep our goal of being part of a respectful positive learning environment as our #1 goal. If that happens, we will do amazing things in room 209.

Before they left on Friday, I asked them to share affirmations with each other. I started; I shared an affirmation with a student who moved in the middle of the year. She chose another student. He chose another student. One student affirmed the new teacher in my classroom and thanked her for the job she has done while I have been gone. We made our way around the room - sharing one compliment at a time. No one left class without a smile on his or her face. I'd say that is more important than any grammar lesson or short story that I could have planned. So Monday, they will keep building trust and respect. Monday they will get back to English. I can't wait to see what happens as they take ownership of our classroom culture. It will be so awesome to watch them lead.

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